Dynamism.

It's interesting, really, to look back on myself, like I've been laying this track behind me. When I think of things that I said, things that I did, just 6 months, a year, a week ago, it's hard to believe that I'm still looking at me. Who was I, then, when I stepped on to this campus? Different thoughts in my head, different motives, different hair. I'm different now, in the small and big ways, because I'm in a different place. It's like I'm looking at the Statue of Liberty, and this whole time I've been walking around it, and now I'm looking at the same thing but in a very different way, and in so doing I've changed a little myself. I came in here looking to continue being the smartest ass around. I came here looking for a girl to hold my hand and validate me, or help me validate myself, who knows. I came here looking for the same things I left high school wanting. It gets tiring, though, to keep chasing after dreams that aren't there anymore, because once you've caught the dream you still have to remind yourself why you wanted it in the first place. But regardless of the correct analogy or what I was, it's a strange experience to see that I not only am, but I'm very much becoming. I'm ok with that for the first time. For the longest while I took pride in the way I was unmoving in my mannerisms, in my dress, in my speech, in my view of those who do what I might not. And the point isn't what those views actually are, the point is that the world doesn't end if you become a dynamic character in the movie of your own life. Keep the first things first, God, Family, the search for Truth. If scripture says it, do it. Never get into your head that you are defined by your idiosyncrasies, or at least don't be afraid to become who you'll be, knowing that those things that you hang on to might have to be left behind. Challenge yourself today. Don't challenge society if that's what you always do anyways, don't question authority if that's your M.O. Limit yourself, squeeze the edges of your bottle, and chances are what comes out was extra anyways.